spellbound by You xxx

nov 04 2012

dollhouse

23.08


i wished for You
You came and made me feel
that everything is true xxx

there were more ups than downs..
but all are inevitable
they will happen wether we want to
or not...

i cried and i cried...
and felt too sad,

but why?

for someone who refuse to feel this again,
it was something i thought i have forgotten...

but why in the best of times,
do i feel as if i am pulled towards You
i feel helpless and sometimes i feel restless..

i am a woman who wanted a man
to take care if me..
foolishly thinking thats all it will ever be...

it wasnt.it wasnt how i expected how things would be...


i hae been a wife,i have been a fiancee,
i have been a gf and in all of them i never knew
or felt any happiness...
the way i felt when i was with You...


what is wrong,what is right?
i dont know anymore
all i know with You everything seems bright...

no one would understand this situation we find ourselves into...

but would anyone blame us for how things now came to?

i had a conversation,with someone close,
having difficulty in believing that she will ever find love,
inspite of her never really falling in love,
she asked me,
how can You still feel love inspite of all the hurt You had in the past?
how can You be with anyone after all that?

i had to tell her,

i said, i see life differently than others...

but i didnt say anymore why...
but this is why...
i know i shoould think of how the pain was in my past..
but thats not where i want my life to last

i dont see life as gray...
and i wont let pain lead me astray...

i have to try to live a life,with all its colours
despite all around me lies...

i have expirienced chaos,hurt and pain,
wealth and poverty...

but one thing i realized,
you have to be poor to be wealthy...
hurt to love,
die with in to live...

when ever i felt pain or sadness...
i think of You and i know You will hear me
even in silence...
see me even in darkness,
love me even when there is nothing left..

and because of this i know i cant be a victim of my past...
nor a victim of my present...
specially not going to be a victim of my future...

but most of all,

its because for now,i know
i am spellbounded by my love for You...